Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Sometimes Sinner - Sometimes Saint

My Walk Monday
My Walk Monday - just share what is going on in your walk for the week or just the day so we can run this race together!

If it appears I didn't "run" anywhere last week with the Lord from the lack of post (I think with me appearances are rarely deceiving) then it most likely appears correct.

I made it to ladies Bible study last Thursday, but that is where I noticed I am trying to live a week off of one or two days mana! My group leader encouraged us not to live without being in His word EVERYDAY... if that was all I needed to be there to hear, I heard it, and the Lord encouraged me and convicted me with it. Thank you Dee.

I got into the word on my own on Friday. And was very blessed in the word from the Youth Pastor on Sunday. Yesterday and Today I was in the word on my own as well.

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I have been praying what is really hitting me or getting my attention in my walk that I want to share this week. And even though I have been blessed in His word I really feel convicted to look-up another song.

This song is from a c.d. my hubby recently bought. I already had a couple favorite songs off of it, but every time I heard track ten I knew God wanted me to listen! Listening wasn't good enough though, as I am not always good with figuring the words of songs out, so today I was finally obedient to look it up.

Here it is...

Lord I know You are showing me my heart. You are showing me that my actions prove I don't wanna be better. That I don't want You to put me together. That I like to sit around and believe there's no one as messed up as me.

I see You show me that I lie. I see that I don't try. Lord I don't deny when I am wrong, but I when I continue on the path I do, I hate seeing that being miserable is my own fault and that I hurt You. I'm sorry that I don't try. I'm sorry I make You cry. I'm sorry I do the things I do and I don't care for You.

Lord I really want to be better. I want You to put me together. Please change my hurtful, hateful mind, it's sick and I want You to heal it. Like the leper I beg You to cleanse me.

Lord when I feel I can't hide the demons I face, I pray You give me boldness to get in their face. I know that I'm a sinner, but the lies I hear regarding this like to keep me there. I pray that You be willing to free my eyes from the binders I place. I pray that you heal my mind from it's messed up embrace! Lord please revive me, renew me, let me walk in LIFE and sanity!

I love You Lord, please forgive me.

"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27 : 13 - 14


Jeannette said...

Hi, it's Jeannette from Counting Our Blessings. I'm going to start with you this week on my faith blog. I'll link it up, but it is http://GodsProverbs31Princess.blogspot.com in case you wanna hop over sooner than tomorrow lol. I'm going to be doing a lot of work on it today so if it looks odd you'll know why. See you tomorrow. I hope you are having a blessed Sunday.

Oh and your link to find all of you My-Walk Mondays is not working. It is searching for "My Walk Monday" and your label appears to me "My-Walk". I've never done the search thing on my blog so I don't know how to fix it.

This ardent heart said...

You were right about the song- crazy and seriously God....

I just want to encourage you friend, to live in the light! Focus on God's love and grace and who He is... don't give anymore of your time to sitting in the dark...

Heart you my friend, I can entirely empathize with you