This week the Women's Bible study group at my church is going to have a "Night Out" so we actually have two full weeks to get our homework done for our next regular study day.
I decided that I wanted to take this extended time to catch up and fill in those empty pages... well I have two weeks = 14 days right? Well I counted and I was behind by 73 pages!!! I have to do about 5 pages a day! Ahhh! I should already have 20 done and I only have 15. If I can catch up and finish this Bible Study in it's entirety, it would be my first!
I always seem to fall behind in everything I do. I am a little worried because I just signed up to go to a Jr. Collage near my home and if I cannot get 5 pages of Bible Study done a day, how am I going to be with school work!!!???
But I did have a blessing today! My mother-in-law has had it on her heart to watch my 3 kiddos while I go to school and the way we were talking about it today I have even MORE confirmation from the Lord that I am doing the right thing! I LOVE You Lord! Thank you for that!
This week I have been striving pretty hard just to MAKE myself obedient to Christ.
I signed up for school.
I started learning to play the guitar.
I'm doing my Bible studies.
And I am taking better care of my home.
All things that I have been putting off... and as we all know - delayed obedience is the same as disobedience. Now I just have to last longer than 2 weeks!!!
Lord, thank you for a good week. Thank you for the feelings I have of right-standing with You from trying to allow Your discipline to rule over my life of self. Lord please continue to help me to discipline my self to make it my slave to You, that when I am done with this life I may not be disqualified. (1 Corinthians 9:27)
Thank you for putting it in my heart this past 6 months to change wholeheartedly, to come back to a true worship of You, to submit once again to Your love, to be obedient and fall back in love with wisdom and righteousness.
I want to live a live that makes others full of wonder and amazement of You! You are ALWAYS amazing and I don't want to settle living anything short of that.
I want to live no longer rejecting You, no longer stubborn, no longer headstrong, no longer obstinate, no longer resistant, I open my heart and my ears to you Jesus, I am willing!
Help me not to focus horizontally to what is going on in this world around me, the fleshly things, my temptations, my fears, my downfalls, but instead teach to me to focus vertically straight on You Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith.
I want to be more like Stephen - full of faith and of the Holy Spirit, full of Your grace and power. I want to be able to focus up and see! I want my life to be for You first more than ANYTHING else! I love You Lord.
We went to the Aquarium on Saturday :) It was a beautiful day and the kiddos had a wonderful time celebrating their birthdays :) My son's was the day before, but my daughter's was back in December... this trip was put off for a long time, but we were blessed in God's timing :)
I know that I have mentioned to you all that I have been going to a counselor... he is an AMAZING man in the Lord. I just love him for wanting to help me in my journey in wanting to fully become God's workmanship. To fully be IN Christ To learn better how to submit to those good works which He prepared in advance for me to do! (Ephesians 2:10)
He always gives us scriptures at the end of ours meeting with him. I think every time each scripture is straight from the Lord, but I totally loved the one he read today!
He reads out of The Message Bible as to make it sound like a message straight to us, I loved it, read this.......
So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ (which I verbally said "I am" to!)... ACT LIKE IT. Colossians 3:1a
Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert! See things from Christ's perspective. Colossians 3:2
Totally what I have been doing... shuffling along looking at the things right in front of me... I explained today to him that when Satan is attacking and trying to lie to me I feel like I am a hamster running on a wheel and I cannot get off!
Lord please help me to look up, help me to be alert and help me to see myself through Your eyes! Help me off this "hamster wheel" of lies and help me to ACT LIKE I am serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ.
Help me to live in the new life You have purposed for me. Help me to live nowhere but IN CHRIST! I don't want to be seen unless I am seen in YOU. Give me the strength to kill off everything that goes with my old body of death. I don't want my life to be lived shaped by things, desires, pleasures, greed, selfishness and feelings instead of by You Lord.
I don't want my poor choices to cause you sadness or anger :( I know better Lord and I WANT to change!!! I want to make sure all this is gone for good! I'm done with my old self. I tear it off like clothes and throw it to You - the all consuming FIRE. From now on I want YOU to define me Lord!
Thank you for choosing me for this new life of love. Thank you for dressing me in strength and discipline! Lord I give You and Your word run of my life and I give my every room to You for what You wish. Help me not to scrape by minimally... I want to give this life for You my all!!! I love you Lord!
That prayer was taken from the rest of Colossians chapter three.
April 10: Yes - we are missing two fishies... I hope my little one didn't eat them!
April 11: This is my daughter's "Mommy and Daddy" in their "car"...
... if you look closely the "daddy" is Prince Charming and he has a receding hairline :)
April 12: It was a beautiful day to celebrate my Lord's Resurrection!!!!
April 13: My two older kids did my hair - lol - I think my daughter got this idea because we had a little scare from the mother-daughter sleepover we went to... we had to check our hair for eggs... LOL! Praise the Lord we were all clear!
April 14: This is the kiddos playing with their new and giant bubble bucket! :) April 15: This is what I did last night... I decided to surprise my sister-in-law (who I live with) by putting her scrapbook shelves together right next to mine while she was away at work :).
April 16: And this is the mailbox-man I have been wanting to take a picture of... today I finally did... isn't he cool!?
Hello all - sorry for the late post again. I had a busy Easter weekend and have been having internet issues. I actually am writing this post offline so when my internet is up again I can put it up quickly :) Better late than never :)
Now I have something I deem really sweet that God has given me this week. See I am reading through Ezekiel (a hard book when you are working on rooting out stubbornness and rebelliousness) and I hit a very uplifting chapter.
In Ezekiel chapter 34 starting in verse 11 God told me...
I Myself will search for you Carolyn, for you are mine, and I will seek you out. I will care for you Carolyn and I will deliver you from all the places to which you have scattered yourself.
I will bring you out, gather you, and feed you. I will feed you in the good pasture. I will feed you Carolyn and lead you to rest. I will seek you when you are lost, bring you back when you are scattered. I will bind up your heart when it is broken and strengthen you when you are sick.
I will destroy the strong among you that oppress you, I will feed them with judgement. I will deliver you Carolyn, and you will no longer be a prey. I will set Jesus over you and He will feed you Himself and be your Shepherd. I, the Lord, will be your God. I will make a covenant of peace with you and cause you to live in security.
I will make you a blessing Carolyn. You will know that I am the Lord, when I have broken the bars of your yoke and have delivered you from what you have been enslaved to. No one will make you afraid. I will establish for you a renowned planting place and you will not again be a victim. (HUGE for me, because I have been holding onto the promise that He is going to plant me and restore the years the locusts have eaten :)
Then you Carolyn, you will know that I, the Lord your God, am with you, and that you are Mine. As for you, My sheep, the sheep of My pasture, you are man, and I am your God. I love you.
Simply beautiful - thank You Lord for searching for me and making me Yours. Thank You for caring for me and delivering me from the things I chose to put in my life that carry me away from You. Thank You for bringing me back to You and leading me to rest. Thank You for binding my broken heart and giving me strength. Thank You for watching out for me when others hurt me. Thank You for keeping me and my family safe. Thank You for making me something good though all I am a rotten sinner all the time. Thank You for another promise and a conformation that You are continuing to plant me, and in a nice pot too :). You are the very Lord of me and the very God of me! You are AMAZING and I love You too!!!