My Walk Tuesday Again!!!!

Ladies I cannot tell you how many times I have thought of writing this post out, then I would not! I want to share so many places in my secret heart with you, but I have prayed and just know that it would not be the wisest choice to bear the boggie monsters in that closet of mine for all the world to see at this time!!!

Let me just tell you that you can take it pretty obvious that I am struggling with SOMETHING (big or small) when my posts are late on Mondays (which they often are). This week it has been that old nagging secret sin that comes up every once in a while.

With God - I am really breaking Satan's grip on it though! I have struggled with this particular thing since like 8th grade! I got saved in 11th and really it has only gotten worse! But just this year I have no longer let Satan keep me in fear and solitude!

I told 3 of my good friends this secret that has been eating away my Christian exsistance, I also FINALLY told my husband (after 8 years of marriage) and my counselor!!! Let me just tell you it has been amazing the see the loss of strength in a stronghold when you share your burden with other believers!!!

And now (in the vaguest and wisest way I know) I am sharing it with you. Please just pray that I would continue to live the scripture God gave me at 2 a.m. one morning... "Therefore repent and live!" Pray that the condemnation from the enemy would stop and that I would find my worth in Jesus!

I have the responsibility to walk in a manner worthy of my calling (Ephesians 4:1). And I am called as a child of God, a princess with the duty to uphold my Father's Name! To walk with humility and gentleness with patience, in love (Ephesians 4:2) Even if that gentleness, patience and love needs to start with me not being so harsh on myself, being more patient with my growth and loving me how God sees me then so be it! HE CHOSE ME JUST THE WAY I AM!

Thank you ladies for your love towards me and your kind words - God bless you!

Remember to cast your cares on Him for He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7).

And, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain in the Lord (1 Corinthians 15:58)

Lord - take me all the way!

This is another song that God put on my heart while hearing it in the car. It took me a while to remember enough words to look up the lyrics online and actually find the song, I am so glad I did - I LOVE IT!!

It's called 'The Motions' by Matthew West.

Lord, thank You for being faithful to spur me on when I tend to voluntarily put myself in a rut. You know I don't like where I put myself! I don't care how much it's gonna hurt to get out, but I WANT OUT!

Lord, give me and humble and contrite heart, a heart that beats only for You! If I cannot live this life for You then I would rather not live it at all, this world is worthless to me. Lord please help me not to live as this world lives, consumed and distracted...

I only want to be consumed by You with nothing to distract me. I don't wanna turn back again in the future and feel like Satan successfully made me a drone as part of the masses! I am done! I am not going to live like that again, I submit to You Lord and trust that the devil is fleeing because I have and WILL resist him!!! Take me all the way Lord!

I don't wanna go through the motions, I don't wanna go one more day, without Your all consuming passion inside of me! I want to give you EVERYTHING Lord, take it ALL!

Picture a Day

March 6: My hubby left on Friday to go to a weekend Men's Retreat...

March 7: ...Little did we know I would end up with 102 temperature that night and the next morning!... staring at the strange shadows on the wall...

March 8: I painted these toes just 6 days before this and they are already all chipped :(.

March 9: My hubby got my engagement ring and wedding band re-sized, re-set and soldered... I haven't worn them in years, since they didn't fit - I have really missed them and am glad to have them back on my finger!

March 10: Yes my anniversary was a week ago, but I forgot to bring my husband's card with me on our little trip, so I had to alter it a bit. I gave it to him with some packages that came in the mail that I had him order for himself, lol :)

March 11: My daughter is so thoughtful to give her lambie a nice warm hat! :)

March 12: I scrapbooked a little a couple Saturday's ago and didn't quite finish the layouts - but today I cut out the letters for 'baby' - ahhh progress.

My Walk Tuesday?!!!

If you cannot tell from my other recent blog posts I have been a bit thrown off lately :)

Please forgive me again, I am sorry... I was sick recently and a bit distracted trying to get back on track here! Satan is trying to get his hand in here pretty good, but it's not working the ways it used to and it's not going to!

God has been encouraging me to be content in all thing and to do all things unto Him, kinda tough sometimes!

But I'm still fighting :) thank you for your prayers.

Picture a Day

February 27: My son brought this too me... "mommy look!" he was so excited...

February 28: It's been quite pretty outside lately... my kids even started eating snack outside again... yes - the cookies!!! But at least this time I WAS NOT the one eating them :o)

March 1: Yes more mischief - there is always SOMETHING to take a picture of! This is what my daughter decided to do with her "quite-time" instead of reading or napping! (One of our favorite books!)

March 2: Me and my hubby left for our one night getaway on Monday! This was just one of the adorable things in the back garden of the Bed & Breakfast... not to mention my adorable husband! Wait - I'm sure you didn't need to hear that.... lol!!!

March 3: This was a sight to see, I never realized that's what the inside of a crab looked like! (It was a much prettier purple in person.)

March 4: This blessed me so much, thank you Joshie!

March 5: And this ALWAYS blesses me! I LOVE it when I my son lines things up! And I love it even more to find him quietly and busily doing it when I get him out of his room in the morning, he's sooo cute!!!

Wordless Friday?!

An Anniversary Gift...

The best part of this surprise is at the end!!!

Thank you Joshie! I love you too!

Tuesday...

... was my 8 year wedding anniversary! And yes we made it through that dreaded 7th year with a bang! It was one of the hardest (my husband would say I planned to make it that way) but we are now better than we have EVER been! I love this man so much!!!!

Look at the blessings we had that day...

This was the garden in back of the Bed & Breakfast, with a pond behind it, the forest behind that and the ocean just beyond the forest.

This was our view from where we were blessed to have dinner.

Sunset and all!!!

This was the back of the Bed & Breakfast from the trail that I just HAD to walk Monday night in the dark because I wanted to walk on the beach! That was adventurous!!! I'm sure it made Josh feel rugged as I was squeezing his hand the entire way. (Picture taken the next morning when we walked the trail again to see where we had REALLY gone.) Oh and we didn't get to walk on the beach - I think we would have died with the rainy, windy weather, in the dark at HIGH tide!!!

This pic is from a bench just above a small hill you walk down to get on the beach... where we stopped the night before :).

Here is what you see from that bench...

This is the stream that comes from the pond (full of frogs) that the trail leads you along.

And this is just one of the signs we saw on our journey - comforting!

This is the small bridge I was scared to cross at night - thinking that there was a lot more water under it :). When you can hear but you cannot see, things can get a little freaky! Like when we suddenly heard all of the frogs stop croaking at once - what were they afraid of???

This was on the way back when the trail started to widen again, very comforting, and beautiful.

Oh! And this is a lighthouse we stopped at on our BEAUTIFUL drive back home! It was not in working order, sad - but still very pretty.

My Walk Thursday?!

Lets see... this week in My Walk God has blessed me enormously! Last week I wrote about my struggle with mean people, but little did I know that one of the people I struggle with most would come to me and poor her heart out to me! That same day - that night - she came to me and told me she loved me, she told me she was sorry, we told me that she respected me as a parent!!!! AMAZING! God is soooo good! I was also able to apologize to her for my expectations, my unloving attitude and my bitterness. And that was only the start of the blessings!

I was also able to plan a getaway with my husband (that of which we have not had in about 5 years!). My husband's mom watched our three kids from 3pm Monday straight through till 9pm Tuesday!!!

I was also blessed on Saturday when my Joshie took me to a jeweler to get my engadgement ring and wedding band re-sized, re-set and welded together! (I don't get them back till tomorrow.) He also let me get some girl time in by sending me off to scrapbook with my friends! Where I also found out about a scrapping retreat he is sending me off to as well!

Thru all of these blessings I could clearly see the enemy working, but God blessed me with decernement and His power to just rebuke the spirits and move along with life! Okay so, the two computers breaking just before our trip, my first planned babysitter getting into a car accident before the trip, my son throwing up at our church's Agape Feast - yes - before the trip... it wasn't fazing me, Satan wants to steal from my Joy, kill my fun and destroy my marriage, and it was not happening! Praise the Lord!

Another blessing even after the trip, I received a small package in the mail as an anniversary gift from my husband, awesome! But you'll have to wait to see what that is in future posts because I am planning on back-blogging pictures since my comp is down.

I'm mostly back...

... up and running again ...

... granted it's from my husband's PC that also crashed on us this week. It is running now on a borrowed video card till my Joshie comes home with a new one. His video card totally fried when he tried loading one of his video games :(.

My MacBook Pro is currently at the Apple Store waiting for me to pick it up. It got a new power button, a new left strip (which is where the charger is), a new charger, two new feet and it will possibly need a whole new battery! I got the call almost 2 hours ago to pick it up, but all my babies are napping.. .. ..

I was very worried to leave it there since none of my photos are backed up! But they didn't mention anything bad over the phone, so I am hopeful!!! Yes... that IS what I said.. .. .. the Scrapping Servant has NOT backed up ANY of her photos!!!!

Please don't yell at me... just tell me some of the good ways to back up photos to motivate me instead. I was thinking of uploading them all to a photo printing site, but I don't know which one?

I cannot wait to get the back-ups down now though, just in case I am not so blessed next time.

Plus while I am doing back-ups I will be able to see which ones I want to print for my "First Annual CTMH Scrappin' Divas Camp Weekend" in May! I totally can't wait! It starts at 4pm on Friday and goes through till 3pm on Sunday! It includes 2 nights, 5 meals, 2 snacks, a 6 foot table all to myself, drawings, goodie bags, a make-n-take, and "a surprise or two more". Not to mention an awesome time of fellowship with some great friends!!!! (There are even massages and pedicures available!!!) SOOO EXCITING!!!

Warning!

I am not blogging because my MacBook is not working, it is going to the Apple doctor today, hopefully they will be able to fix it...

... I will be back faithfully when I am up and running again!

PS... I'm excited I had a getaway with my Joshie yesterday and I am going to be going to a scrapbook retreat in May!!!  For National Scrapbook Day!!!!!!