Wednesday, October 21, 2009

My Walk

My Walk Monday
This touched me this morning when I read it.

"Wrath is fierce and anger is a flood, but who can stand before jealousy?
Better is open rebuke than love that is concealed.
Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but deceitful are the kisses of an enemy."
Proverbs 27:4-6

You see is wasn't just irony from a bad night last night, it was God ministering to me through His word this morning. Praise Him for a new day and a fresh start!

Last night I was struggling with jealousy, lack of love emotions, and I was most likely wounding my husband because of it ;( How can my poor hubby even stand when I am so jealous?! And jealous of things that are MORE than likely inspired by lies of the enemy! But how easy is it to be jealous when I see more love in kindness than frustrations... the scripture is right, I would much rather receive and open rebuke (which I have before - it is HARD), this is harder!

"Love is as strong as death, jealousy is as severe as Sheol; Its flashes are flashes of fire, the very flame of the Lord." Song of Solomon 8:6

"For jealousy enrages a man, and he will not spare in the day of vengeance." Proverbs 6:34

"For this is the message which you have heard from the beginning, that we should love one another; not as Cain, who was of the evil one and slew his brother. And for what reason did he slay him? Because his deeds were evil, and his brother's were righteous." 1 John 3:11-12

Lord help me to love my husband. Break my heart free from this bitter jealousy, extinguish the fires that start up from it Lord. Turn my rage and anger into kindness that I will spare those who hurt me and be forgiven myself for be forgiving. Pour Your Holy Spirit out that I may be able to love as You love. I do not want to be as Cain. I don't want to do the work of the evil one. I don't want to murder in my heart with my anger rooted from my jealousies, forgive me Lord. I want to burn bright for You, extinguish the darkness of my flesh and let me spirit have free reign in me!!!


Rebecca said...

Hi, Carolyn! Looks like I was too late to link up this week. I'll link this week's post to next week's linky, but if you want to read it click on over!

Good job on the weight loss!!! WahOO!!!

Scrapping Servant said...

:( too late to link up :( I'm sorry hunny, I haven't been blogging MWM or pretty much at all since October!

I have A LOT to blog on, but I guess I'm just in a funk and don't want to do it.

Thanks for the compliment, it's REALLY nice to hear from you, it reminds me why I used to blog.