Monday, August 18, 2008

My Walk Monday (almost Tuesday)

My Walk Monday

Still struggling with disobedience!

The verse I have been meditating on lately is 1 Corinthians 9:27...

... it reads, "I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified."

I don't know about you, but I do NOT want to be disqualified, I want to learn to MAKE my body my SLAVE! I want to run in such a way that I may WIN! (1 Corinthians 9:24) I want to keep pushing forward like that very determined Michael Phelps!

I was reading My Upmost for His Highest yesterday and some great conviction was really there for me to pray about and ACT ON!

The title was are you discouraged in devotion? "Um yeah!" was my thought.

Oswald Chambers asks here if I have ever heard Jesus give a harsh word - well yeah, if you ladies have followed along with my struggle with disobedience just since the last ladies retreat I went to (pretty much since the beginning of My Walk Monday) you would know I am still not listening/obeying. I remember coming away from that retreat so solemn that I didn't know what to do with myself, and now I am noticing if I am only faithful to seek God out on a deeper level He is faithful to show me why all this has happened, and some stuff Oswald was saying were ringing true to that situation again...

... he wrote about the rich man in Luke 18 that Jesus asked to sell everything he had and follow Him (yeah harsh). He said this man understood what Jesus said, he heard it, sized it up, and it broke his heart. "He did not go away defiant; he went away sorrowful, thoroughly discouraged. He had come to Jesus full of the fire of earnest desire, and the word of Jesus simply froze him; instead of producing an enthusiastic devotion, it produced a heart-breaking discouragement."

THAT is what happened to me because of the harsh words, I got discouraged, it's not really that I want to be disobedient, I just don't have the enthusiastic devotion yet (I'll pray for that)... so I walked away and Jesus has not followed me...

Read the beginning of My Upmost for His Highest today also, they go together...

He is only going to repeat to me the conditions of where I need to listen and if am a doer, and not just a hearer, I WILL DO! - I WILL DISCIPLINE MY BODY AS MY SLAVE.

Tackle It Tuesday Meme
PS>>> my tackle is up for Tuesday over at 5 minutes for Mom... as if just getting this out and thought about wasn't tackle enough :o).

6 comments:

Christin said...

(((Carolyn))) boy can I understand where you’re coming from dear. My husband isn’t as addicted, I guess would be the word, as some, but there are certainly evenings when I feel like the video game is more important then his family. The thing is though, I know better then that. (We all should). If you haven’t read it yet, you should read “For Women Only”. It opened my eyes to a LOT of differences b/w males and females and our lack of knowledge for the opposite sex really puts a strain on relationships. Believe me, sometimes I still struggle with trying to understand, but I keep giving it to the Lord.
Remember, too, that change doesn’t happen over night. You may find that you’re struggling with the same problem and trying to fight it for a year. Just keep pressing foward. Remember practice makes perfect. If you need any prayer or just “to talk” or anything, I’m just a blog away! ;)

Trish said...

I definitely need to discipline my body-I keep thinking I am ready to start getting everything right…or begin, like becoming more spiritually fit, working on my physical self too…find my path in life…well, I pray for help with that every day, but I never seem to get started.I just know it will happen, hopefully sooner rather than later!

and yes, those photos are great aren’t they!!(of the dreadlocks)is your hair shorter than in the pics at the top of your blog? I have been playing with mine…backcombing a little bit, I know I can find someone to do all of it if I asked, but I really wanted to take the time to do it naturally so I can kind of have it go along with the things I mentioned above, give me time to work on my life…..the first step is to get a new job, even if it’s not something I want to do forever, something that is less stressful than where I am now, because I am sitting here feeling sick about going to work and you shouldn’t feel like that(especially someone with histiry of depression and anxiety-I can FEEL the anxiety choking me and I hate that).but we just need to take it 1 day at a time and pray….

well,have a good day and will chat with you later!!

Mommy Magee said...

wow! That’s a great tackle it tuesday post! Hope everything is going great! Thinking of you and all you have been going through!

Kelly @ Wisdom Begun said...

Great tackle, Carolyn, and great post. I know you will be able to conquer self with the help of our heavenly Father! Still praying for you and I hope you are having a better day today.

Trish said...

yes, I used to exercise every day, and I felt so much better then. I don’t know why I stopped, but it’s so hard to get back to it. I know I need to though. If you get a chance, listen to the song on my blog.I just love it, I never heard of them before today (heard it on someone’s blog, don’t remember whose it was)well, I need to try to get to sleep-talk to you later:)

Maisie said...

I did a My Walk Monday post, too. Glad that you’re hosting this meme again. Discipline is what God is speaking to me, too. I used to be so self-disciplined in college. But I’m not doing so well with it in my mid 30’s. There are definite things that I feel the Lord leading me to become disciplined in and I’m working on them. I read on a blog that obedience is a way to worship God. I’ll pray for you that you get that enthusiasm that you want.