Sometimes Sinner - Sometimes Saint

My Walk Monday - just share what is going on in your walk for the week or just the day so we can run this race together!

If it appears I didn't "run" anywhere last week with the Lord from the lack of post (I think with me appearances are rarely deceiving) then it most likely appears correct.

I made it to ladies Bible study last Thursday, but that is where I noticed I am trying to live a week off of one or two days mana! My group leader encouraged us not to live without being in His word EVERYDAY... if that was all I needed to be there to hear, I heard it, and the Lord encouraged me and convicted me with it. Thank you Dee.

I got into the word on my own on Friday. And was very blessed in the word from the Youth Pastor on Sunday. Yesterday and Today I was in the word on my own as well.

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I have been praying what is really hitting me or getting my attention in my walk that I want to share this week. And even though I have been blessed in His word I really feel convicted to look-up another song.

This song is from a c.d. my hubby recently bought. I already had a couple favorite songs off of it, but every time I heard track ten I knew God wanted me to listen! Listening wasn't good enough though, as I am not always good with figuring the words of songs out, so today I was finally obedient to look it up.

Here it is...

Lord I know You are showing me my heart. You are showing me that my actions prove I don't wanna be better. That I don't want You to put me together. That I like to sit around and believe there's no one as messed up as me.

I see You show me that I lie. I see that I don't try. Lord I don't deny when I am wrong, but I when I continue on the path I do, I hate seeing that being miserable is my own fault and that I hurt You. I'm sorry that I don't try. I'm sorry I make You cry. I'm sorry I do the things I do and I don't care for You.

Lord I really want to be better. I want You to put me together. Please change my hurtful, hateful mind, it's sick and I want You to heal it. Like the leper I beg You to cleanse me.

Lord when I feel I can't hide the demons I face, I pray You give me boldness to get in their face. I know that I'm a sinner, but the lies I hear regarding this like to keep me there. I pray that You be willing to free my eyes from the binders I place. I pray that you heal my mind from it's messed up embrace! Lord please revive me, renew me, let me walk in LIFE and sanity!

I love You Lord, please forgive me.

"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27 : 13 - 14